a love letter and thx to the community <3

[Juicy]

first off all ...

ofc a Oink and a M(oo) for any of U ! <3


<3 a huge thx,

to the community and all those good souls we lost on the way.




... *HUGS* ...



so first thx for the acceptance. <3

it turned out i am a so called "extro verted emphath with adhd within the authistic spectrum "

or something like that...


atleast thats my guess,

but those terms?

are mostly wrong and got a bad framing.


i am writting books to explain the spectrum´s at a later spot xD



for now its about the community and sure i am a weirdo,

lots see me as misfit specialy RL.


but the community sees your actions and gets your kind of heart over the time.


so i was lucky and got thousends of friends.


and a huge sorry for the times i cant remind clearly xD

i still love ya a lot !

but almost always it does not matter anyway ,

we just conect again.


+ who knows maybe i had another update and u meet a new version of me anyway xD


point is i had so many great experiences , adventures and much more here.

and i got to tell a secret,

it all matters.

or nothing matters at all,

what do i try to say ?


its all about the experience and conections ... that gives ya still growth and feelings.

wich matters end of the day =)


even more i got to say,

ty for the free online therapy


i was deeply traumatized and didnt understand myself fully enough.


but helping others ,

did help me aswell.


i cam across funny shit last year xD

u wont beleave it and its a long story ...

sorry to my close friends at this point xD


i know i am a pain in the ass when i am in a prozess ^^


i know my pms and shit are to long ...

... but i am a author and i hold or try to make it short xD


all in all do i got to say.


i truely found here a second life and a hidden safe space,

with an awsome family.


what a journey,

i bow down in all respect to all of the good souls i met <3


gone try todo this year also a "little" thing as lovly payback ...

... and also kick in the butt to those who deserve it


i am gone post stuff in the next month here or at other spots.

depending on the content and moderators mood ;P


and well about entropia as game ...

it got downsides ... bugs and interface changes xD ... but also good points and the very best is the community =)

love ya all !

*hugs*


ps. no i am not drunk

its early and i am just stoned ...

and sems i stopped drinking again anyway ...

got to get shit done ya know xD

sooooo

i am sorry no more "beer hugs" ...

... but ...

lots of bear hugs !

*bear hug*

love ya guys and hope to see ya still for a long time ingame ^^

<3

 

[Juicy]

dang ... update ... i am gone write some german shit first as it sems.

none trusts me rl like they do VR -.-

ppl need money and a prof ...

they dont watch your stebs and actions.


so lets get atention rl ,

shell we


i bet i get shit printed rl as unknown till end of march.


i got no puplisher or anything picked or done to send.


but i know my skills , the market and i got a little stuff written in the dec ...

i might use the cheat code of having own old files to rework them ...


any wanne bet ?


my gods tell its fine for the good will and education xD


lol nvm about the bet ... i take only money from ppl who need leasons

and who are not that close friends , or ppl i like and respect <3


and still i am also much as i can online ... and still i monitor some channels ^^


like the disi one from smoker .

guess hes fine if i name him here.


and ya els all els is still comming too...

some got badly delayed because i do now all alone as it sems.

but whats writing science , podcast scipts , giving free therapy and articles at all xD

i am just a jobless to the most rl ... so lets get some shit printed so i can slap them with it ...

oww and if i sound angry ... i am , but not because of u ...

its the ppl that pretend to much and sabotage me.

while i do still 1 on 1´s ... like this homeless from the dec ... finaly i got her into the system.

hope i wont need to pay the full march her food.


u wont beleave how unsocial germany can be and how ppl abuse there power -.-


lucky ppl i come to the rescue ... and lol its a army standing up , similar to me

watch out boomers xD

the gamers are comming for ya ...


maybe i write that as topic ...


and well u want the shit when i am done ?

it would be german ,

but u would get it before its printed.


so u see i am real and anything i say ^^


maybe its even a start for the gamer mental health stuff i wanne do.

got to think how to combine shit to safe time and so on ...

i am still a lazy bitch after all xD


anyway thats now a longet update again ... sorry ...

but heads up,

still i left lots out .


*hugs*

your juicy & amber


ps . remind not to stress yourself to much. thats causing cancer , MS and much more shit ... i got MS myself ...

so relax a bit from time to time too ... wish ya a fantastic day and ofc a oinky one =)

 

[Juicy]

<3